Chapter 10 ā The Friday Morning

He looked at her.
āIām not asking what Annie would have said.ā
He held her gaze. Something in his faceāthe particular stillness he wore when he was managing something carefullyāshifted slightly. He looked at the letter, he looked at his hands, and then he looked at Clara. She watched him understand, for perhaps the first time, that his silence on certain matters was not neutral; that she had been the one making decisionsāthe walk, the coffee, the dinners, the letterāand he had been the one arriving gratefully without ever offering a direction of his own.
āI donāt know how to ask you to stay,ā he said quietly, ābecause I donāt know if I have the right.ā
āWhy wouldnāt you?ā she said.
He looked at the table. āBecause you deserve someone who can offer you something whole. Not a man who still takes flowers up a hill on Fridays.ā
Clara looked at him for a long moment. āThomas, the flowers are one of the reasons I started paying attention.ā He looked at her, and she held his gaze. āI am not asking you to stop. I am asking you to also pay attention to what is in front of you.ā
He said nothing for a long time. āThen Iāll need to think.ā
āI know,ā she said. She gathered the dishes. āCome next Sunday. Iāll be here.ā
May you like
She was. He came.
He went up the hill alone on the Friday after. Not at the usual time, but earlier, before the town was fully awake, when the Wyoming February morning was cold, gray, and still.